Doubting?

I really am not sure of what to write about lately, as I'm sure if evident in my recent posts. Everything is just extremely busy with Mistress and myself, and we've had little time to do much of anything together. It's hard right now, I'll admit that. I do wish we had more time, but I am very thankful for the time that we do have and know that in the future we will have even more. Someone asked me a few days ago if my feelings about Mistress and our relationship waver during times like this. If I ever doubt us or myself. My immediate response was absolutely not! I think they were shocked by this and really weren't able to understand why it doesn't have that sort of affect on me. Since then I've considered their question quite a bit and still my answer is the same. I've analyzed in my mind why it doesn't waver, why I don't feel like our relationship might be 'slipping away', or what have you. And what I have come up with is that no matter what is going in our lives, I know where I stand with my Mistress and I know that we both desire for this to work, thus it will. I know for certain that even though life seems to get in the way at times, that's just the way it is. We don't always get what you want out of life, so why should the lifestyle be any different? I don't question whether or not Mistress cares for me. I know she does! I don't question myself either, because I know where my own feelings remain. I am confident in 'us' and what we have, despite other things taking the front burner for a while. That's just the way it is and I think any submissive worth their salt will understand that they are not 'number one' all the time and sometimes not even half the time depending on many variables of the relationship. Yet when you're together, you're both number one to each other.

On another point, Mistress has me rewriting my schedule and it's due to her next Tuesday. I'm to include my exercise routine. I interviewed for a new job today and will soon know if I got it. The hours aren't the same all the time, so I'm not sure how Mistress will wish to handle the schedule as far as that goes. I guess I'll found out soon!

Another Thursday Question

Thursday Question
Do you have requirements for your health and fitness? What role does your partner have in controlling this part of your life?

Well, initially Mistress had it in my schedule for me to exercise several nights a week and I did, but things have changed. Now with my diabetes things are different and alot stricter, although I'm not sure I'd say they're stricter because of Mistress, or not.

I'm in the process of making up a new exercise routine for myself and I am on a "diet". Basically I am eating fewer calories as well as few carbs. As few as my body will allow. I did that on my own without Mistress telling me to do. However, I believe the reason it's been going so well thus far is in large part because of her encouragement and praise for the hard work I've put into it already. She wants me to be healthy and I know for sure that if I didn't step up and work on it myself, she would put her foot down and demand it of me. I think it's just easier all the way around not to make her have to do that and take the initiative myself.

All that said, it will be in my new schedule which I will be making up and Mistress will adjust things if she thinks it is needed and then she'll enforce it. So in a way, she does play a large part in this aspect of my life because of the schedule. But I do believe it is one of those things that I would do reguardless of whether she made me or not.